The Journey begins…
My story starts….
I’ve always pushed myself to learn more and to ask the question that drove my mother nuts… why? This is because ever since I was a little kid, I was on a quest to learn about myself because my world never made sense to me. I always had this sense and feeling that something was off, but I could never place my finger on it…what was happening to me, little alone have the words to actually describe it.
Why did it take me twice as long to think or to get things done? Why did I always feel uncertain or uncomfortable and even in certain situations my brain would just shut down. It felt numb and would not work. I used to call this my stupid brain mode. What was wrong with me? Was I just weird ? I felt like whatever it was, I had to hide that weird deep inside like a secret that was something to be embarrassed about.
What I have come to learn was I wasn’t weird or needed to hide or even be embarrassed. I was just really good at masking a learning disability, ADHD (inattentive), autism spectrum disorder (ASD) and a binocular visual dysfunction (BVD).
Although my story is one that starts with awkwardness and what I now can describe as ‘that feeling of being disconnected from my body’. It sent me on an epic quest to figure out what my body was really doing, how I could connect to it and how my brain and body could work together as a team.
Why me i used to ask soon turned into what if this happened to me for a reason? What if I was given a chance to show myself that I was stronger than I could have ever imagined. What if having this happen to me wasn’t a bad thing in the sense that it gave me my true path in life which was to help people coordinate themselves better in space .
I now look at these awkward moments as awesome challenges or cool brain puzzles. I now think that there were some key attributes that I had that allowed to to take this positive approach and face these challenges with a curious mind and a sense of awe and wonder rather than shame and negativity.
I call these attributes… My big 3.
1️⃣ Growing up on a farm. Being a farm kid with hard working supportive parents gave me the resources and building blocks to push toward my dreams and goals. It gave me space to grow and allowed be room to play and explore. It also gave me a tough as nails attitude, inner strength and resilience.
2️⃣ Sport! More specifically swimming. In the water I found my home and a place where the world made sense. Where I was safe, had great friends, coaches and mentors and was able to move and feel comfortable. For all my swim club out there a quote comes to mind….
"The water is your friend...you don't have to fight with water, just share the same spirit as the water, and it will help you move."
Alexandr Popov
3️⃣School… this is a place I had amazing teachers, administrators, tutors and clinical legends that helped me face learning challenges but also taught me key life lessons and skills that allowed me to develop and grow.
Now As I step into this new journey, my goal is to help and educate others who might’ve not had those things, who might need a voice, who might need someone who’s been through it to help them. It is my goal to connect those who might be struggling with some of these issues with the right people, the right mentors , and give them the tools and resources to coordinate their bodies and minds.
As such, I’ve decided to start a blog detailing what it was and what it is like to go through living and thriving with these conditions and inspire others to collaborate and connect. My quest is to show people not to hide not to be ashamed or afraid, but to share what it’s like to go through true growth and to inspire others to seek to ask questions why and to learn because that’s the only way we are going to become stronger more connected and become braver heroic versions of ourselves.
Welcome Deep divers, Divergents thinkers and Creative minds to Curiously Coordinated.
Once a Nerd always a Nerd…
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